We’re all going to die and that is what makes us lucky. Some are not going to die because they are never going to be born.
So far, my entire life is a continous cycle of convincing myself that I can and then convincing myself that I actually can’t.
We were all cells, I mean, we were once an egg cell or a sperm or whatever you call it. And cancer, stroke and other diseases starts from this single unit of life as well. I find it amazing how we can all die just because one single cell  (which where we all came from) started messing up our system.
I’ve always imagined ways I would die. I honestly have dream ways to die and dream kind of funeral. But I guess, I just want to die with a smile.
I want to live my life recklessly. But I keep on regretting things. I know some people say it’s not healthy to regret about the things we’ve done in the past, but really, if I only knew the things that I know now, there are so many things I wouldn’t have done before. There are certain habits I wish I didn’t develop, certain places I wish I didn’t went on and even certain people I wish I didn’t date. If I only knew that this special someone I have now will come into my life, I would have just probably waited.
My thoughts while wandering around this underground cemetery in Nagcarlan Laguna.
We’re all going to die and that is what makes us lucky. Some are not going to die because they are never going to be born.
So far, my entire life is a continous cycle of convincing myself that I can and then convincing myself that I actually can’t.
We were all cells, I mean, we were once an egg cell or a sperm or whatever you call it. And cancer, stroke and other diseases starts from this single unit of life as well. I find it amazing how we can all die just because one single cell  (which where we all came from) started messing up our system.
I’ve always imagined ways I would die. I honestly have dream ways to die and dream kind of funeral. But I guess, I just want to die with a smile.
I want to live my life recklessly. But I keep on regretting things. I know some people say it’s not healthy to regret about the things we’ve done in the past, but really, if I only knew the things that I know now, there are so many things I wouldn’t have done before. There are certain habits I wish I didn’t develop, certain places I wish I didn’t went on and even certain people I wish I didn’t date. If I only knew that this special someone I have now will come into my life, I would have just probably waited.
My thoughts while wandering around this underground cemetery in Nagcarlan Laguna.
We’re all going to die and that is what makes us lucky. Some are not going to die because they are never going to be born.
So far, my entire life is a continous cycle of convincing myself that I can and then convincing myself that I actually can’t.
We were all cells, I mean, we were once an egg cell or a sperm or whatever you call it. And cancer, stroke and other diseases starts from this single unit of life as well. I find it amazing how we can all die just because one single cell  (which where we all came from) started messing up our system.
I’ve always imagined ways I would die. I honestly have dream ways to die and dream kind of funeral. But I guess, I just want to die with a smile.
I want to live my life recklessly. But I keep on regretting things. I know some people say it’s not healthy to regret about the things we’ve done in the past, but really, if I only knew the things that I know now, there are so many things I wouldn’t have done before. There are certain habits I wish I didn’t develop, certain places I wish I didn’t went on and even certain people I wish I didn’t date. If I only knew that this special someone I have now will come into my life, I would have just probably waited.
My thoughts while wandering around this underground cemetery in Nagcarlan Laguna.
We’re all going to die and that is what makes us lucky. Some are not going to die because they are never going to be born.
So far, my entire life is a continous cycle of convincing myself that I can and then convincing myself that I actually can’t.
We were all cells, I mean, we were once an egg cell or a sperm or whatever you call it. And cancer, stroke and other diseases starts from this single unit of life as well. I find it amazing how we can all die just because one single cell  (which where we all came from) started messing up our system.
I’ve always imagined ways I would die. I honestly have dream ways to die and dream kind of funeral. But I guess, I just want to die with a smile.
I want to live my life recklessly. But I keep on regretting things. I know some people say it’s not healthy to regret about the things we’ve done in the past, but really, if I only knew the things that I know now, there are so many things I wouldn’t have done before. There are certain habits I wish I didn’t develop, certain places I wish I didn’t went on and even certain people I wish I didn’t date. If I only knew that this special someone I have now will come into my life, I would have just probably waited.
My thoughts while wandering around this underground cemetery in Nagcarlan Laguna.
We’re all going to die and that is what makes us lucky. Some are not going to die because they are never going to be born.
So far, my entire life is a continous cycle of convincing myself that I can and then convincing myself that I actually can’t.
We were all cells, I mean, we were once an egg cell or a sperm or whatever you call it. And cancer, stroke and other diseases starts from this single unit of life as well. I find it amazing how we can all die just because one single cell  (which where we all came from) started messing up our system.
I’ve always imagined ways I would die. I honestly have dream ways to die and dream kind of funeral. But I guess, I just want to die with a smile.
I want to live my life recklessly. But I keep on regretting things. I know some people say it’s not healthy to regret about the things we’ve done in the past, but really, if I only knew the things that I know now, there are so many things I wouldn’t have done before. There are certain habits I wish I didn’t develop, certain places I wish I didn’t went on and even certain people I wish I didn’t date. If I only knew that this special someone I have now will come into my life, I would have just probably waited.
My thoughts while wandering around this underground cemetery in Nagcarlan Laguna.
  • We’re all going to die and that is what makes us lucky. Some are not going to die because they are never going to be born.
  • So far, my entire life is a continous cycle of convincing myself that I can and then convincing myself that I actually can’t.
  • We were all cells, I mean, we were once an egg cell or a sperm or whatever you call it. And cancer, stroke and other diseases starts from this single unit of life as well. I find it amazing how we can all die just because one single cell  (which where we all came from) started messing up our system.
  • I’ve always imagined ways I would die. I honestly have dream ways to die and dream kind of funeral. But I guess, I just want to die with a smile.
  • I want to live my life recklessly. But I keep on regretting things. I know some people say it’s not healthy to regret about the things we’ve done in the past, but really, if I only knew the things that I know now, there are so many things I wouldn’t have done before. There are certain habits I wish I didn’t develop, certain places I wish I didn’t went on and even certain people I wish I didn’t date. If I only knew that this special someone I have now will come into my life, I would have just probably waited.

My thoughts while wandering around this underground cemetery in Nagcarlan Laguna.

gemes

(n.) the anger one feels inside but cannot find a way to express it

Being away from you is like not having sunlight through my windows to wake me up.

But sooner, I’ll get to you. 

I’ll get the sunlight again, just in time.

Pandin Lake, San Pablo, Laguna
Pandin Lake, San Pablo, Laguna
Pandin Lake, San Pablo, Laguna
Pandin Lake, San Pablo, Laguna
Pandin Lake, San Pablo, Laguna
Pandin Lake, San Pablo, Laguna

Pandin Lake, San Pablo, Laguna

In my life, I was fortunate enough to have met a prostitute, an addict, a drug pusher, a bipolar, and a 14 year old girl who confessed that she was raped by her own father, an ex-convict, a homeless 9 year old kid, fake diploma maker at Recto, a transsexual, a homophobic man who had two gay sons, and a psychic. 
Funny thing is – the best conversations of my life were with them. Our misplaced morality every so often hinders us from the good and worth of other people. Before we judge, listen. Everyone has a story to tell. 
With strangers, somewhere in Baywalk.
In my life, I was fortunate enough to have met a prostitute, an addict, a drug pusher, a bipolar, and a 14 year old girl who confessed that she was raped by her own father, an ex-convict, a homeless 9 year old kid, fake diploma maker at Recto, a transsexual, a homophobic man who had two gay sons, and a psychic. 
Funny thing is – the best conversations of my life were with them. Our misplaced morality every so often hinders us from the good and worth of other people. Before we judge, listen. Everyone has a story to tell. 
With strangers, somewhere in Baywalk.
In my life, I was fortunate enough to have met a prostitute, an addict, a drug pusher, a bipolar, and a 14 year old girl who confessed that she was raped by her own father, an ex-convict, a homeless 9 year old kid, fake diploma maker at Recto, a transsexual, a homophobic man who had two gay sons, and a psychic. 
Funny thing is – the best conversations of my life were with them. Our misplaced morality every so often hinders us from the good and worth of other people. Before we judge, listen. Everyone has a story to tell. 
With strangers, somewhere in Baywalk.

In my life, I was fortunate enough to have met a prostitute, an addict, a drug pusher, a bipolar, and a 14 year old girl who confessed that she was raped by her own father, an ex-convict, a homeless 9 year old kid, fake diploma maker at Recto, a transsexual, a homophobic man who had two gay sons, and a psychic.

Funny thing is – the best conversations of my life were with them. Our misplaced morality every so often hinders us from the good and worth of other people. Before we judge, listen. Everyone has a story to tell. 

With strangers, somewhere in Baywalk.

The sky is so tragically beautiful, a graveyard of stars.
The sky is so tragically beautiful, a graveyard of stars.

The sky is so tragically beautiful, a graveyard of stars.

gökotta 

(n.) the act of waking up early in the morning just to go outside to hear the birds sing at sunrise and appreciate the nature

There’s always a brief moment everytime we wake up,

                                       where we have no memories,

                                                    a blissful blank slate,

                                                        a happy emtiness.

I thought the only way we can grow is if we change. But I guess, people never really change. We can never change.

We just grow and bust out of our shells.

The things that we say, we will never do or will never become, however unwarranted, may actually be innately, inherently us. And that may not be such a bad thing after all.

Cubao Ex, in the silence of mornings.
Cubao Ex, in the silence of mornings.
Cubao Ex, in the silence of mornings.
Cubao Ex, in the silence of mornings.

Cubao Ex, in the silence of mornings.

Did something weird today: 

Before ako pumuntang school kanina, dumaan muna kong sementeryo. Nilagay ko sa puntod ni papa yung isang guest pass. I hope andun ‘sya.

Hay. 

No matter what we go through, and no matter how much we argue, I know in the end, she’ll always be there for me. I love you and thank you with all of my grateful heart, mama!

PS. Naka Hermes ‘sya. LOL

A message from Anonymous
If you've chosen something else, mas masaya ka sana ngayon.

But we are our choices and not just because everything hasn’t gone according to plan doesn’t mean you have to turn your back to the things you love and go in a completely different direction.

Wait. Are we talking about careers/job/collge here? Or is this about something else? #tuliro

feuillemorte
(n.) the color of a dying leaf
feuillemorte
(n.) the color of a dying leaf
feuillemorte
(n.) the color of a dying leaf

feuillemorte

(n.) the color of a dying leaf

I still haven’t figured out what I am going to do with my life after college. I’m considering grad school but it scares the hell out of me.
Sometimes I can’t help but think what my life could be if I enrolled on a different course, something I never thought I would enjoy four years ago. What if I took up bio? Or film studies? How is my life now going to be?
Im afraid I would end up with a boring job. Having an enviable career is one thing, and being a happy person is another.
I just realized I have some seriously awesome friends that in 2 days I might never see again. I might actually cry now.
Seriously, Im so fucking scared of having to grow up.
Right now everything looks so strange to me, as if I don’t belong here. It’s me that’s out of place. And the worst thing is that I feel there’s somewhere I do belong, but I just can’t find it.
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My graduation thoughts.
I still haven’t figured out what I am going to do with my life after college. I’m considering grad school but it scares the hell out of me.
Sometimes I can’t help but think what my life could be if I enrolled on a different course, something I never thought I would enjoy four years ago. What if I took up bio? Or film studies? How is my life now going to be?
Im afraid I would end up with a boring job. Having an enviable career is one thing, and being a happy person is another.
I just realized I have some seriously awesome friends that in 2 days I might never see again. I might actually cry now.
Seriously, Im so fucking scared of having to grow up.
Right now everything looks so strange to me, as if I don’t belong here. It’s me that’s out of place. And the worst thing is that I feel there’s somewhere I do belong, but I just can’t find it.
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My graduation thoughts.
I still haven’t figured out what I am going to do with my life after college. I’m considering grad school but it scares the hell out of me.
Sometimes I can’t help but think what my life could be if I enrolled on a different course, something I never thought I would enjoy four years ago. What if I took up bio? Or film studies? How is my life now going to be?
Im afraid I would end up with a boring job. Having an enviable career is one thing, and being a happy person is another.
I just realized I have some seriously awesome friends that in 2 days I might never see again. I might actually cry now.
Seriously, Im so fucking scared of having to grow up.
Right now everything looks so strange to me, as if I don’t belong here. It’s me that’s out of place. And the worst thing is that I feel there’s somewhere I do belong, but I just can’t find it.
-
My graduation thoughts.
I still haven’t figured out what I am going to do with my life after college. I’m considering grad school but it scares the hell out of me.
Sometimes I can’t help but think what my life could be if I enrolled on a different course, something I never thought I would enjoy four years ago. What if I took up bio? Or film studies? How is my life now going to be?
Im afraid I would end up with a boring job. Having an enviable career is one thing, and being a happy person is another.
I just realized I have some seriously awesome friends that in 2 days I might never see again. I might actually cry now.
Seriously, Im so fucking scared of having to grow up.
Right now everything looks so strange to me, as if I don’t belong here. It’s me that’s out of place. And the worst thing is that I feel there’s somewhere I do belong, but I just can’t find it.
-
My graduation thoughts.
I still haven’t figured out what I am going to do with my life after college. I’m considering grad school but it scares the hell out of me.
Sometimes I can’t help but think what my life could be if I enrolled on a different course, something I never thought I would enjoy four years ago. What if I took up bio? Or film studies? How is my life now going to be?
Im afraid I would end up with a boring job. Having an enviable career is one thing, and being a happy person is another.
I just realized I have some seriously awesome friends that in 2 days I might never see again. I might actually cry now.
Seriously, Im so fucking scared of having to grow up.
Right now everything looks so strange to me, as if I don’t belong here. It’s me that’s out of place. And the worst thing is that I feel there’s somewhere I do belong, but I just can’t find it.
-
My graduation thoughts.

I still haven’t figured out what I am going to do with my life after college. I’m considering grad school but it scares the hell out of me.

Sometimes I can’t help but think what my life could be if I enrolled on a different course, something I never thought I would enjoy four years ago. What if I took up bio? Or film studies? How is my life now going to be?

Im afraid I would end up with a boring job. Having an enviable career is one thing, and being a happy person is another.

I just realized I have some seriously awesome friends that in 2 days I might never see again. I might actually cry now.

Seriously, Im so fucking scared of having to grow up.

Right now everything looks so strange to me, as if I don’t belong here. It’s me that’s out of place. And the worst thing is that I feel there’s somewhere I do belong, but I just can’t find it.

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My graduation thoughts.